Remembering nothing

I dont see what i dont like...but i watch it anyway.

I avoid pain and suffering...but sometimes i lurk for it.

I'm cruel...but i can be kind.

I've never been incredibly good.

I've never been incrediblybad.

I fear the loss of the things i have...but sometimes i dont care.

I'm stupid and stuborn.

I'm something weak wanting to be something strong.

I lie.

I wish.

I want.

I hate.

I love.

I lose.

end.